I feel like I owe you all a normal post.

I have to say I love you all. I don’t know if you guys will EVER know how much I appreciate our friendship. Your feedback cheered me on a day when I needed lots of cheering, but we’ll get to all that later.

Last night, as I was trying my hardest to go to sleep I had a deep revelation. I’ll skip all the long boring stuff and cut to the chase. If someone were to seriously ask me who my friends were I would probably stop for a second and begin on a long ramble list of all my nestie friends all over the country! I really would! Being in Kuwait has GREATLY limited my ability to have friends, so in a lot of ways you crazy girls who I honestly don’t really “know” are my friends! Okay- enough with my silly thoughts. Anyway, once again, thanks for your sweet feedback.

Today has been a rough day. We are headed back to Kuwait tomorrow. Today was a day of last minute errands and actually realizing that “this is it.” It could be a long time before we go home again, and that was really hard for me.

Our house closed yesterday, which made me cry.

I drove by my parent’s house, the house I grew up in, which made me cry.

We went by “our spot,” the place we went on our first date, during our courtship, where we got engaged, where we went when we were first married to talk, and probably where I’ll birth my first child (ha ha, just kidding), and I cried some more.

I just feel so small.

I have no idea what God has planned for us, and the fact that I add worries and craziness to the situation just clouds things even more. Leaving here is going to be hard tomorrow! I am so homesick and I haven’t even left home.

Will is so optimistic, and he made me feel a lot better about things. He said in some ways he was excited to go back because we no longer owe anyone anything, we can start saving, and if we were to stay in Oklahoma we would kick ourselves in Sept of 08 when we realzied that our time in Kuwait would have been over and we could have been in much better shape. He’s right, but it sure doesn’t make it easy! We sat and talked in the courtyard and kissed under the mistletoe (theres LOTs of it here) and I felt okay, but still sad. We bought the Purpose Driven Life and are going to read it together. I’m excited about that. I so want us to follow God’s plan and not our plan, and I think doing this study together will be really good for us.

Gosh, this is a boring post, isn’t it? Sorry, I guess my heart is just really full of emotions right now and I’m sort of robotically typing things out to take my mind of the fact that tomorrow I will making the trek back to lonely Q8.

Did I say how much I appreciate your friendship!?

You probably think I’m some cavewoman that has no friends and has lots of cats and eats lots of Duncan Hines cake mix out of the box. Okay, I know I may sound a little pathetic, but it’s not the case. I just have no one to relate to or really close to my age (besides Ethel, and I like her, but that’s all I’ve got) to call a friend, so I really do love our little nest community. <3

So, I hope you all celebrate lots for me tomorrow night! We will be in the air on new years eve- which, according to ALL women, is THE most romantic and thrillng way to ring in the new year (ha ha)!

I love you ladies, I truly do. Thanks for always being there and just letting me be me- even when I don’t always know what that means!

And to you, my beloved Sooner State, I miss you terribly already. Let’s just say “see ya later pardner” because I can’t bear to say anything else. <3 <3